Well, the new website is done. It took a few days and a lot of help from mortis and sadgrl, but it's done.
I decided to do this because the internet is completely fucked. Algorithms are trying to push the most vile "content" in front of your face constantly and it doesn't really matter where you are, it's gonna happen. The only way out of that is to focus on small communities in a small internet. Web 1.0 and shit. Webrings. Friends' websites. My own website. It's the only way.
If you read my writing about the last attempt at making a website then I'm sure I'm going to be repeating a lot of shit but I haven't read that shit since I wrote it and I'm not gonna read it now lol. Basically, I'm just getting mad very easily at a lot of shit. Every website wants to track my usage, even if I'm there for only a second. HUD elements are constantly moving around as more shit loads in or gets hidden. Ads are abundant and just fucking evil. Before I moved to Sweden I spent 4 full months getting nothing but sports betting ads on twitch. That shit sucks.
The world is constantly getting worse in every way. Prices for everything are skyrocketing. Evil people in power are doing everything to make sure the weakest of us are dead. Everything fucking sucks and I'm just trying to live my life, so I'm tired of being reminded of the shit I can't escape during my leisure time. It makes me mad. It makes me want to commit violence. I'm scared to even say something as simple as that because who knows who's watching. Who knows how that will effect me, just expressing that frustration. I'm tired of it. It's time to scale back, focus on family and friends, focus on what I can impact.
I'm rambling. I'm tired. I just want to game in peace. I don't want to "cultivate a brand." I want to be a person. I want to be able to make mistakes, learn from them, grow. I want to be free to live my life. This is step one. Well, step like 50. It was a long and arduous process getting to Sweden.
I hope you can take some inspiration from all this. Make a website. Hang out with just a few people. Focus on what you enjoy. Focus on helping the people in your community, even if it's just your neighbor, or your friend, or your sibling, or something. Try to be happy. Do your best. That's all you can do. That's all anyone can do. It's what I'm doing. Thanks for reading.
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